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I am waiting on some videos to get done uploading. I figured now is a good a time as any to make a blog post. My house  is quiet, all  my work is done for the day. I  am settling down listening to some  music and thinking about what it is I need to get done for tomorrow. 

I received a message tonight from a follower thanking me for getting them through the death of their father. That has resonated with me  all night. I was eating dinner and editing thinking about how a 60 second video I post has helped someone through one of the hardest things someone will ever have to go through.  Its humbling to say the very least.  I get  many messages  along  those same lines, almost hourly. The comments on my "When  tomorrow starts without me." edit, I have cried  with   just about all of the people that have commented on that video. When that video started going  viral and really started gaining traction, it was getting like 3 comments a minute each one more heartbreaking than the next. I  actually stepped away from  posting because every time  I would check the  comments I was so terribly heartbroken for each one. 

I obviously  did come back  after some  time but that was hard, it is when I realized that the things I post matter, that people really do pay attention and it resonates with  them.  So I decided  right then   and there that I want my teeny tiny corner of the internet to be positive and to help others.  

I know this post sounds like  I  am boasting like "Oh  look at me I am so helpful" I truly hope it is not coming out like that  as it is not my intention. 

I just want to be someone that can be strong for others when they need it. I didn't really have a lot of strong people that I could turn to in certain situations and I know how lonely that can be. So I want my community to know that I am here, no matter what. 

   

Good night to whom ever may read this, even if no one does. It is cathartic to me to have a place to vent, and get things off my mind. I am not your typical tiktoker I don't really get to interact with the community. I put my passion into my edits, so even though I am there replying to all my dm's, reading ever single comment and replying to them when I can. I am just in the background watching all of this go on. I honestly feel like so many of my subs think that I am just some bot that runs my account. I spend hours, upon hours on my Tiktok. So for the very few of my followers that get curious click on my blog and actually read it. I appreciate every single second of your precious time. Thank you. 

Namaste'